My Heart Is Screaming by EmoLovesShawn, literature
Literature
My Heart Is Screaming
You like me, but not enough to date me; only enough to do things when we are alone. How is that fair to someone like me who loves you so unconditionally? I just can't help myself. You draw me in with every adorable little smirk that slides across your face. My heart melts every time I hear your contagious laughter echo across the room. Just hearing your voice instantly makes me feel like I can fly.
But the power in your words can crush me just as easily as the can lift me up. That's only one of the many things you don't realize. You don't bother with sugarcoating things. You'd rather sprinkle them in acid and watch as your words bu
god what could beocme of a life this,
Theres days where I
start
to hate your name.
It isnt right,
me sat
all night hearing
the things you said to me knowing you whisper,
them to her.
And watching the sun rise is tainted with memories of you
Cause I'm the only one you watch them with.
How can you kiss me,
so casually?
I can join in with your game,
pretending that its okay I feel the same
but my feelings run deeper,
without the closure
of a friend
to kiss one last time
and to say
its over to.
They walk past her everyday,
Few bother to look her way,
She sits alone in a quiet place,
Her bangs always hiding her face,
Constantly drawing with her pen,
Artistics flourishes that never end,
But what nobody has ever seen,
Are the words written under the cover,
"Notice Me."
Everybody knows his name,
Everyone pretends it's all just a game.
He's the kid who always wins a fight,
Eyes that brood with a freakish light,
And a body covered over with tattoos,
All to carefully hide the words on his heart,
"Notice Me."
She's the girl in the crowd,
Spiky hair and metal bracelets,
Thrashing around to the music she hears,
Telling the
This is my curse,
This is my burden that I bear;
Every day.
I dont know what will happen
If I ever told you this secret,
That is locked up and buried deep,
Deep, deep down inside my heart.
I wish I could tell you my secret,
But you can never know
How it burns my eyes like acid
To see you with those other girls,
How my foolish heart shatters as I long to be them,
And how the darkness passes over my soul,
As my jealous heart longs to hear them
Scream for death.
And how, when that moment passes,
I force myself to drink up my guilt,
The golden cup of poison forced down my throat,
You do not know how every night my heart,
I know that I will probably get hurt,
And I understand the friends that tell me that this is a mistake,
But I don't care.
Not because I want to prove something to anyone,
Not to act like I've moved on from a past love,
I only don't care because I'm happy,
And I'm allowed to love who I want.
It is my life,
My pain,
It will be my heartbreak,
And I love how you make me feel,
So nothing is going to stop me.